Have you ever had those days when you just don’t know how you are going to make it? I mean literally MAKE IT! You are so mentally and physically tired that you want to quit, but you know you have a long way to go before you can rest? What do you do?
It is so easy to crawl under the covers and retreat and give up but that is not the answer, especially since after the retreat you find you are further behind than ever. This was me! As a single mom with two very active children that are pursuing their dreams and myself always grinding, everyday life was wearing me down. I had to figure out how to manage everyone and everything. Friends recommending this planner and that inspirational journal and all these other items on the market did not help. (15 different books with different ways to do things is ridiculous. Why don’t these folks collaborate and create one journal that covers everything?) Who has time to sit down and write in this journal and that notebook?
After feeling like a hamster on the wheel not getting anywhere I finally gave in and retreated. Several days of nothing, I did the bare minimum needed to get through the day and then I had an epiphany. I cannot be All things to All people. I have to determine MY GOAL and work on that. Anyone who knows me knows that when I became a Mother, my children, where my GOAL, and as they grow and mature their goals and needs change thus I change.
Sometimes I face scrutiny because I sacrifice my time and social life grinding for myself and my children and it made me think hard but I realized that this is who I am. My heart guides my actions and decisions and my mind makes the path. I am a Mama Bear and it is my duty to guide my cubs onto their paths of greatness. My role does not change just because they are choosing paths of entrepreneurship or a path that is not usual for children their age.
The Momager…..At an early age, I watched my daughter act out full-blown scripts with her dolls with full direction and eloquent dialogue. We went to one session that introduced kids to acting and she blew my mind and there our journey began. Her mind was made up that she wanted to act and also model.
The Sports Mom and Agent…. Next, I move to my son. True entrepreneur. He has found his voice and place in music and on the basketball court. We have been in the gym since age 5 and still going strong. Then recently I heard him “spit some bars” and I was floored. Where did this come from? Who’s child is this? Beats and studio time, please!!!
So, where am I now? I am out of retreat and back on the grind. I realized that everything is not going to be perfect and I cannot do everything. Between basketball, acting, auditions, studio time, regular life and oh, did I mention as a family we are now in the customized apparel business also, I will be Overwhelmed but I am also Overjoyed. We are working on and living out our dreams through quiet chaos. When that overwhelming feeling hits I just sit down, have a glass of wine, take a few deep breaths and press on.
It Always Seems Impossible Until It’s Done!
Dreams Don’t Work Unless You Do!
Unapologetically D
